BeeBee's 365 Challenge

for the little things that make me happy

Day 280: A Rare Fashion Related Post

I’m in a bit of a bleurgh mood at the moment. A real fug.
On one hand I’m happier than I have been in a long time. Then on the other hand I’m feeling really down and frumpy.

I try to not be the average fat person. I don’t want to be skinny, but I also don’t want to be huge. On a whole I look at clothes and that is where my fashion conversation ends with clothes.

Yesterday in the office I felt good in my clothes. I’ve gained a little weight recently, so I’m filling out my clothes a bit too much. So the jersey clothing as come out, yesterday I had a pair of Extra Long Leggings from Simply Be, a long GaGa-sleeve black and white striped scooped neck top from Yours Clothing and some old Tan ankle boots from Next. For a change I felt confident.

Yet, not enough to stop a binge when I got home. I know what I need to do. I know how to do it. Now I need to work out my motivation. Right now that is lacking, even now as I am searching high and low for a dress to wear to a Christmas Function it’s not peaking my interest.

Today’s Activity: Going for a mooch at a local craft fair.

BeeBee x

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Day 279: Things I Wish My Mother Told Me

Parenthood is about sacrifices.

Your ambition never leaves, you just have to reprioritise.

This is the bit about motherhood that I really don’t like. I don’t want to make decisions based on what coins I have in my purse and the lack of family that I have around me.

There are days that I dream of being back in the office on a full-time wage.

Today I saw an opportunity arise, one I probably won’t see again in a long time. One I would love to try out. That’s when the sensible voice kicks in. It is only a short term contract, you would have to pay for childcare on top of the other expenses it would entail.

It isn’t like what it was for Mum back in the day. She had my grandparents who offered her support. I would go before and after school, during the school holidays too.

Yes, my children do have 2 sets of grandparents, but they’re not exactly well placed. One set is in Wales the other in the next county and unable to travel much of the time. The joys of being in the countryside without a car or direct bus and train routes.

You can only ask friends to do so much. So instead of following a hunch, and applying knowing that I would have to turn it down if offered. I have to make a decision to not do something and leave myself with a collection of what ifs.

Instead I will write on here and wherever else will have me, albeit unpaid. One day I will happen upon a ‘novel’ idea and work from there.

21-day Challenge: It is starting to get a bit easier again. Routine, that’s what I’m craving I think. Routine and lots of coffee!

Today’s Activity: Catching up with my stories and a takeaway.
BeeBee x

 

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Day 278: Mustache Mug 2: A #PinAddict Post

Last month I made a Mustache mug using a process that I found on @Pinterest.
This time I tried the same idea, but using porcelain pens.

I found mine on Baker Ross 

 

 

 

 

 

So this time I took my clean dry mug and attached my
mustache template.  Make sure that you try and
colour in the middle as evenly as possible. Keep a
damp piece of kitchen roll nearby to tidy up the edges
before the ink dries.

 
   Carefully remove the template (if you’re using one
that is. I had to tidy up the edges slightly as it bled a
little. Then as per instructions left it to dry for 5
hours.  Baked for 90mins at 200c and left to cool in
the oven.

 

Again, I put my freshly baked mug through the dishwasher to test the fastness of the print.

 

 

 

 

Me and my ‘tache mug! A fab make. Love this so much! Now what to tackle next off @pinterest for the PinAddicts Challenge?
21-Day Challenge: Still teetering on the edge. I could be better, I could be a whole lot worse.

Today’s Activity: Managing to negotiate a deal with the people at sky without panicking and handing the phone to The Husband.

BeeBee x

 

 

 

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Day 277: Clickity Split

I’m still trying to pull myself together after last week’s illness. So as I tend to in these moments I seem to return to wool as therapy.
Today, I was lucky enough to spend a lot of time with a dear friend. We spent most of it making Danish Paperhearts.  How fabulous are these? There are lots all over Google and Pinterest. Not bad for a first attempt.

Photo: My Meuff heart

When I had postnatal depression after the birth of Thing 2 I crocheted like a mad thing possessed, it resulted in a rather long stripy blanket.

This time I have picked up my knitting needles. Working in blocks and rows, in just stocking stitch. Nice and straight forward. No planning and rarely even looking at what I am doing, it keeps the hands and the mind busy.

21-day challenge: still wavering but getting better everyday.
Today’s Activity: Chatting and weaving paper hearts.

 

BeeBee x

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Day 276: Side Effects

Last week I had the most awful bug. Gastroenteritis always seems to knock me for six.

It left me with a few side effects. Namely some dreadful mood swings and behavioural issues.
I have learnt this week that not only does gastroenteritis stop you from keeping food in your body. It also stops your anti-anxiety medication from working effectively.

My moods are starting to stabilise again, as is my eating after five days of binge eating. Today things are starting to look brighter. I have taken it upon myself to start listing lots of things we don’t need around the house on Facebook Sale Sites, and will then probably list them on Ebay, and then if the weather holds up the rest will go to a carboot sale. Then if they haven’t sold a quick trip to the tip or the charity shop.

I have had enough. There is only so much tat a house can hold and this house is full of the stuff. Beware kids your bedroom and the nursery are next!

While going through the back room, I have happened upon some ready cut out patchwork shapes and some scraps of material, then I also found lots of wool. It’s just a shame I appear to have lost my other bag of special bobbly yarn – just as I had managed to find something to do with it. Typical really.

Today’s Activities: Getting some order back into part of the house.

21-Day Challenge: Back in control! Yey!

BeeBee x

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Day 275: Meal Planning Monday

I’ve not done one of these in a long time, and I’ve not even planned at home… It’s not been good.
I’ve not planned a lot to be honest. It hasn’t helped with my extra-curricular problems.

So this week I am making a concerted effort to bring some organisation back before the hustle and bustle of Christmas strikes, and that’s before the BeeBee Tower’s Halloween celebrations begin.

So back to this week’s food. So far the weekend was  at best very hit and miss. the one meal that was planned didn’t happen as we forgot to take the chicken out of the freezer!

Monday: Pasta bake.
Tuesday: burger and chips (as requested by Thing 1).
Wednesday: either beans or spaghetti on toast.
Thursday: Salsa Chicken and Rice.
Friday: Is still Takeaway Friday!!!

At least I have almost regained control over my eating again.

Today’s Activity: finally getting my treadmill into the front room.

BeeBee x

 

 

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Day 274: Loud Noises – the half written entry

What is it about a nice quiet Sunday Morning that two children and a moody husband ruin. That would be the silence.

Sundays are about the one day of the week I can get up early and get some writing done in peace.

Instead get to cower under a blanket with a cuppa, every sound that comes out from the mouths of these babes appears to be louder by the second.
I don’t know if it is three almost four days of bingeing, lack of sleep, the end of my gastroenteritis or just being an evil mother but each note is setting my teeth on edge.

21-Day Challenge: Big fat fail.

Today’s Activity: It has been a tough & emotional day, finally got the change to chill with the season finale of Hart of Dixie.

BeeBee x

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Day 273: Never Bake in a Bad Mood

Once again Saturday is here. Once again I am stressed to the hilt again.

This has been a very different week to the one I originally imagined.

Most of it was spend running to and from the bathroom. The rest has been craving sugar.

If I’m poorly I bake, if I’m annoyed I clean. If I’m bored – you don’t want to know what I do when I’m bored.

So today I turned to the kitchen in desperation. I have been hankering after making Chelsea Buns after watching The Great British Bake Off on Tuesday. My kneading has never been my strong point. So they started off with hindrance.
So after 10 mins of kneading I bobbed the dough in the airing cupboard to prove. An hour later, barely any difference. So moved it to an open oven set to warming. A reaction finally occurred.

Then came the rolling out. Oh my word. I have never rolled anything so stubborn. Once filled with fruit & sugar and spice, cut into rounds and moved to the tin (which was far too big & how 16 fits into a rectangle I have no idea). They bake… Heart in mouth I open the oven door and seen overly dark tops. My usually cold running oven ran hot today – about right!
Today’s Activity: Reading the upcoming Christmas at the Cupcake Cafe book by Jenny Colgan.

21-Day Challenge: Another bad bad day 😦

BeeBee x

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Day 272: Things I Wish My Mother Told Me

It is okay to be different.

As a youngster, I was frequently compared to other children.

I didn’t do things in the same ways they did. I knew from an early age that I had my own path. I wanted something different.

If you look at a list of things I want to be it wasn’t exactly run of the mill.

A nurse who didn’t see blood.

A story writer.

I wanted to grow a toffee lollipop tree.

I wanted to be a witch.

I wanted to write the news but not speak it.

Strangely I have managed to do little bits of all of those jobs. Which is rare. I don’t have anything in my childhood ‘I wanna’ list. I personally think this is a good thing. I went and did what I wanted when I wanted to.

But this wasn’t seen as a good thing. My family on a whole wanted me to conform. I had to be seen to be a responsible person. I had to look like I belonged. Which lets be honest I didn’t look like I belonged anywhere.

I have had confidence and weight issues for all but about 10 years of my life. I can understand why I was dragged to diet clubs, and food was rationed at home. Every summer holiday started with a new diet, so I would look like the other girls. Every summer ended with a new school uniform being bought, or even made, as I had grown too fat for the last one.

As a grown up and a parent I have finally come to the decision that how my weight problem was handled was wrong. It was always made a point of. Looking back, I wasn’t that horrendously big at my largest at school I was a 18/20.

What I was is upset and felt unappreciated. I didn’t have an opinion at home. This is probably where my love of words came from.

So overall what I want my boys to know is, it IS okay to be different. In fact embrace it. If you are happy knowing who you are, you are not going to put a foot wrong. Mistakes don’t happen, they are opportunities presenting themselves. There is nothing that can’t be undone.

I wouldn’t change me for the world, I have never looked at a picture and decided I want to be that person (I have come close with Zooey Deschanel but I’d still be me). Some situations I have been in aren’t the best, but lead to good tales for the nursing home in later life.

21-Day Challenge: After yesterday’s slip, I’m trying hard to pull it back.

Today’s Activity: Film night on the sofa.

BeeBee x

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Day 271: Faux-Febreze – A #PinAddict Post

As regular readers will know I live in a house surrounded by men. I’ve started to dread that point of the day when I go to the bathroom to clean.

I don’t care what they say, boys just can’t aim… no that’s not quite right. My boys do aim, just not at the toilet. The carpet, pelmet, washing machine… no really that has happened recently, not to mention the lack of flushing. So I have an uphill battle keeping on top of this.

I can’t even count the number of Febreze bottles I have gone through in the last 6 years, and do you know what? I don’t even like the smell.

This is a quick, easy and much cheaper alternative. I used some fabric softener from Tesco, and some bicarbonate of soda which is past it’s best before that I keep for cleaning.

If you still have an empty spray bottle I’d use that, this is one I’ve had for a few years. I topped up the bottle to the top of the widest part with warm water.

I can vouch that this works. And definitely smells much fresher.

I have also used this on the duvet that has been in storage for the summer, hung it on the line, sprayed quite liberally (but not enough to drench it) and left outside to dry. I now have a fresh smelling duvet ready to go on my bed for tonight.

21-Day Challenge: Fell off the horse somewhat. Could have been worse. Should have been much better.

Today’s Activity: Snuggling under my freshly laundered blankets with a hot water bottle.

BeeBee x

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